SOUTH BROADWAY™

Saturday, May 23, 2009

"This Is Your Captain Speaking, We Are About To Experience Some Massive Turbulence, Please Remain Seated and Do Not Panic. Thank You." 1:55 AM

On weekend that changed everything.

Erase, erase, those memories with you are far gone and I’m glad for that.
I’ve left this town and don’t expect me back.

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It’s 1:41 on Saturday morning. Not a very good time to be awake, but the night has been yet again bursting with emotional trauma and I really doubt I’ll be getting any more than four hours of sleep tonight.

Still, there’s no harm in trying. (No point in it either, to be fair.)

I’ll find it. I’ll find it someday. It could even be right here, right now, talking to me on MSN, telling me to get to bed before because I have school in the morning. Damn. I have school in the morning. Oh, sigh.

I’ll best be off. Till the next episode then fellas.

Good morning world, have a great weekend.

Labels: people, photos, thoughts, weekends

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Miserable And Stunning 7:59 AM

It’s funny how you’re so damn close with the wrong person, all down ridden on the fact that you’ve followed the wrong signposts and hence, have ended up elsewhere. Not that they’re the er, “wrong” person, it’s just that you wish you had that openness with…someone else. Just a particular someone else.

You like, spend virtually all your time with other people (practically everyone but that ‘someone else’) and I know the books say “the person you spend the least time with, is the person you actually want to be with”, but it’s not gonna work if you spend virtually NO time with them at all. That’s just…sad.

And eventually that person who you actually want to spend all your time with, will notice the fact that you talk to practically everyone else around him even though he’s right next to you and he’ll walk away thinking he doesn’t exist in your eyes. But that’s not true (I couldn’t think of anything clever to object to this).

That’s not the truth because in fact, he’s all you see. Every second, every minute passes and he’s all that’s in front of your eyes. I mean look at all those wasted chances. Just say something. Anything. Because if you just leave things at a loss, running for the hills, then you aren’t gonna get anywhere. Never are, never will.

And I suppose the main reason you can’t get yourself to talk to him, let alone hang out with the guy, is because you’re afraid of ending up looking like a fool. I suppose you are anyway. We all are, aren’t we? We’re all just fools. And that’s how we learn. Anyway, he hasn’t totally dejected you or anything right? Up to this point, he’s been really awesome to you and I guess he has the same reasons as you do for shying away.

You can’t even get six feet near him without losing it. And you’d have to pretend that you absolutely do not like them because that’s the only way you can talk to them without shying away. Just pretend he’s just someone you know, you say to yourself. But no, you can’t, it’s not easy, and you don’t want to live in denial anyway, even for just a minute. But just think of all the things you could be if you took the time to notice each other.

I guess it’s official: life really is messed up. But hey, it’s great.

Labels: people, thoughts

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Between Hours of 10 & 01. 5:31 PM

10:46 AM “..I’m two quarters and a heart down.”

Breaktime didn’t go as I intended it too |: Oh, for heaven’s sake. Maybe I’ve been sending out the wring signs or something. I mean this whole insane thing is driving me up the wall!!! I just want to tear out in sudden frustration. Aargh. But I guess it wasn’t exactly my fault and it’s not that bad. Lighten up.

So I may possibly, might have, could have, most probably with the slightest hint of maybe, acted all…wrong. Wow. I can almost see it.

“Dude, can’t you see what’s in front of you? She absolutely does NOT like you. She acts like you DON’T exist (with the exception of the rare hello’s), she does NOT talk to you at all, she ignores you way too much and seems to having way too much fun with other people! Give it a rest.”

But no. It’s not like that. Not slightly. Not even a little. Not at all. I mean, yeah, I guess I did all that..but I swear, that is NOT what’s going on. At all. Man, if only you knew.

11:00 AM

*yawn*. I feel sleepy. Not feeling any better either. Pourquoi?!

11:03 AM

Still..

11:04 AM

So you must be wondering why I’m writing all this down instead of finishing up an essay or something equally tedious. Let’s just say some people forgot to bring their books and now the class is correcting each others papers and I got lucky, giving my book to someone else and not getting any in return. Oh well.

Anyway, back to wallowing around the pit of great frustration. I don’t really intend on writing all these down, but uh, I guess I feel that much frustrated to do so. So I really don’t mean to be this way, acting like you don’t exist. Like I don’t see you. But I do. In fact, you’re the only person I see. You’ve no idea how much you exist.

The stupid thing is…I’m probably the one who doesn’t exist in your eyes. How…frustrating. I don’t know.

11:15 AM

So if this is how you behave when you like someone, how the hell do you act when you don’t?! That’s just…weird. Do you like, do the exact opposite and NOT ignore them, hang out with them and constantly talk to them? What??

01:17 AM

It’s been a couple of hours, not much has changed. Except for the fact that I am no longer glued to the classroom chair & table, surrounded by constant shouting, laughing & swearing. Honestly. What is with the PG-rating of our class? Honestly.

I’m at Neo and I haven’t been doing good in class lately. Why can’t I fricking understand all those fricking notes?! Geez.

Labels: personal things, school, thoughts

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

The "L-Word" (I Won't Be Caught Using This) 3:20 PM

I think we may have overused the word love, demeaning and violating its definition with all our stupid every day phrases. “Ooooh, I LOVE doing this!” “Ooooh, I just LOVE Coke” “Ooooh, I LOVE this, I LOVE that” and all that bullshit. Seriously. It has a meaning and I honestly don’t think that we should be using the word ‘love’ every 7 seconds. You guys use it whenever the hell you want, but from now on; I’ll use the less than significant other; like. Good old reliable like (:

Yes, I do suppose it means less, but love is you know. It’s love. It should be used as sparingly as the F-word. You know the massive effect when you say that word? Everyone gasps and people curse you for saying it and everything? I swear, the L-word’s supposed to have the same effect. Just not in a negative kind of way. But yeah. I’m telling you, the love is gonna lose its meaning of we use it all the time. I suppose you can use it but NOT all the freaking time, it'll just lose its real definition.

I swear, I’m gonna use the L-word when I really, really DO mean it and not for stupid things like, “I just LOVE free period” or something equally senseless that isn’t really worth being in the same sentence as ****.

Labels: personal things, thoughts