“...Two more weeks, my foot is in the door, I can’t speak in the wake of Saturday.”
Fall Out Boy

I’ve got a job interview at Chill. Ha, now that’s what I’m talking about.


****


2:00
Class just ended at Neo and I was waiting for Rona to pick me up, and you know what time she comes and picks me up? 3. Like, one hour late. I just kept calling and calling and finally she replies and tells me she’s overslept. I know. Well, what did I tell you? Her body clock’s all mucked up right? Hahaha.


2:53
She finally arrives after an hour and like, Josh was all like, “We’re at the cinema, come!” I wonder what he and Tiong were doing while waiting an hour on us. Haha. They weren’t even close. Much less extroverted. The traffic at Gadong was massive man; it took us like what, half an hour to finally get to the mall? It was crazy.

Rona and I wanted to walk in the rain (it’s been all stormy for the past few days here) but her mom simply refused. Parents will be parents you know. Then again, maybe not. All we talked about in the car was the least expected subject that you’ll ever talk about with a parent. Her mom found out it was gonna be two guys and two girls and she thought it was a double date or something (IT WASN’T, I SWEAR, WE’RE ALL JUST BUDDIES HANGING OUT) and so we got into this awkward (for me) conversation about her past mistakes with her then boyfriend, screwing up (literally), the naiveté which ended up with the birth of Ryan, Rona’s 19 year old brother. It was weird. Honest. It went something like this:


“I’m just telling you to be careful. One drop is all it takes to get pregnant. The safest way is to use condoms.”
Me and Rona feeling all weird. And then I say,
“Uh, it still isn’t safe condoms; you know they have holes in them?”
And then Rona’s mom just laughs.


I know right? Man. Can you imagine talking about screwing up, using condoms and all that with your mom? I mean wow. Well, Gette is young right? And I don’t mind her past mistakes. If she never made them, then I wouldn’t have Rona right? Haha.


3:17
We finally got to the mall at about this time. Rona & I decided to spy on the guys for the first two minutes but they caught us. I mean, come on, we just wanted to know what they were up to. Who wouldn’t? I told Josh to get the tickets and the popcorn earlier so all we had to do was get our arses into the cinema.

We watched Zohan. Which was quite disappointing really. I’d give it a 5. I found it quite perverse. Zohan was like an American produced Israeli version of Austin Powers. Adam Sandler was...not so great this time. I mean, banging all those old ladies, what the hell? Did Hollywood run out of bright ideas or something? That’s really cheap. The jokes & one-liners were hilarious and their accents rocked but all the disgusting bits just wrecked the movie. But that’s just me, I don’t know bout everyone else, but I’m not some idiotic person who finds entertainment in incredibly perverse movies. Honestly.


5:30 ish
The movie finished and I was starving. Really. My last meal was like, what, at 6.30 that morning? I really needed to get food so we went down to Chill and I ordered their beef pasta and hell, it was delicious. It’s like, the best pasta I’ve ever tasted, honestly. I found myself having to start the conversations all the time. Cause like, I was pretty close with Rona (duh), Josh and Tiong but Rona isn’t that close with Josh, vice versa, and Josh isn’t that close with Tiong and the other way round too. So basically, I was the bridge. Sort of. I had to get the conversation going. And if I stop to eat, there’d be silences, broken only by alternative music blaring over the speakers.

So I finally downed the last of my pasta and I just wanted to sit around for a bit until this song came on the speakers and it reminded me so much of all the bloody mess I’m in right now (note: present tense, I AM in right now) and I was like, “Let’s get outta here.” Stupid song.

Ey, Rona, remember the Cinderella bit? Hahahaha insane. And you guys were all like he’s my ‘future husband’ or something. HOW IRONIC. Then again...it could be.


6:14
There wasn’t much to do but walk around the mall with the guys and so that’s what we did. It was raining the whole day and apparently, the mall was freezing us all to death. Well them anyway, I felt kind of warm. You shoulda seen Josh, it was like he was somewhere at the South Pole. He was shaking. Really. And so we set off for some place warmer and just kinda sat there when we found it.

Oh, and we saw Haz with his so-called crush. Or girlfriend. I’m not quite sure, but yeah, we saw them and he introduced me to her, I think her name was Peach? Cool name. At first I was like, what, Fish? Hahahaha. But she’s cool and Hazmi deserves to be happy after all the bullshit he’s been put through for the past couple of years.

After she left, Tiong, Josh & Rona said Peach looked like me. I THINK NOT.


“Dude, she looks just like you.”
“What? Haha, no, she does not.”
“Yeah and wasn’t it awkward when he introduced you to her?”
“What?! No, there’s nothing going on between me and Haz, he’s like my big bro man. Ew, you guys.”
“It’s like; he liked you but couldn’t get you so he got someone who looked like you!”
“You guys are nuts.”


And so we stalked them for about 20 minutes. Or wait, was it them who stalked us or we who stalked them? I don’t know. But there was a lot of stalking going on both sides. Cause when the four of us were walking around, we’d look back and they’d be behind us. Then again, the mall is small right? Haha. And so we in turn, stalked them back. We followed them into Rizqun and Tiong and I were like,


“Let’s follow them up the elevator.”
“NO man, you need a card for that, I learnt that the hard way. Not really, but still.”
“No you don’t, just follow me.”


So I reluctantly gave in (I have a phobia of elevators, bad experience) and we got into the elevator and guess what, you can go up without the card. Haha, I think Rona & I took the wrong elevator last time. And so we explored the fourth floor, looked like there was some highly important dinner going on at the ballroom. We wanted to hang by the pool but it was all raining and stuff so yeah.


6:30
So we went back down and saw like, other SMS and JIS people hanging out together. And I met Bob. That isn’t his real name, I think it’s Jeven or something, but he calls me Pencil for no apparent reason so there. Haha. He’s in Rona’s Science class and he’s pretty cool. Much like Arian, but cooler. Haha, no offence.

And I saw Pejman, for like, what, the first time in five years? Haha, remember Pejman you guys? We used to call him Elmo, but he’s freaking tall now, that ass. I used to be taller than him and now’s he’s probably an inch or two taller than me. Darn. I was like, DUDE, IS THAT PEJMAN, HE’S FREAKING TALL, WHAT THE HELL? Yeah, height is kind of a big deal around here. How lame is that?


6:45
And at around 7, Josh had to go. He said something about everyone having to be at the house at dinner time or something, I don’t know. But before he left, he showed us this insane video of his 13 year old sister, Shannon. It was crazy, honestly. She was like, screaming expletives or so at the next door neighbours and throwing this chair at the wall. And there was this video where she was freaking screaming her ass off at the computer till it turned on.

Insane. And only because everytime I see her at school, she looked like a teacher’s pet, or perfect & adored by all. Honestly, her uniform’s all perfect, she looks like she’s involved in all sorts of societies & I heard her ambition was to be a doctor (it was in the yearbook). Until Josh showed me the videos.

Now I know, NEVER to judge people by their entire exterior. It never really tells you anything till you’ve known the person completely. That’s the lesson I’ve learnt this year. Just don’t, don’t ever think you’ve figured out a person because what people show outside is rarely how they really are. I’m not exaggerating. I’m being honest.

By the way Josh, I still wanna meet Shannon. She rocks. I bet she’ll be laughing her ass off when she sees this post, so show her yeah? Haha.


7:40
And so Josh left, his dad was over at McDonald’s and he had to walk in the rain to get there. I wanted to video him getting all wet but the dude ran instead of walked. Pfft. How exciting. Haha. And there we were again, at Chill. We never really wanted to go again, but there wasn’t much to do and so I sat down. The waiters noticed that we weren’t gonna order and so just left us alone.

So we just sat there for about a couple of hours talking, waiting for our rides. Until my dad called and said he wasn’t picking me up until midnight cause the traffic was too much at Gadong and they were already late for something. I didn’t expect that, but it was great.

So I was like, “If we’re gonna be here till midnight, then might as well eat dinner right?” Tiong left already for Netland, so it was just me & Rona and all that pasta. Haha.

Oh, and there was this random moment where they unexpectedly played Wannabe by Spice Girls on the stereo. That was hilarious! Hahahaha, oh I’ll tell you what I want, what I really really want, so tell me what you want what you really really want! Insane! And some of the waiter dudes inside where dancing, haha! Chill rocks.

So we just kinda sat there, eating and we saw Barry & Awi. They’re up for some fight with Ong, this dude who got suspended from school. Awi said something about him betraying the brotherhood (he lied to much) and all that and now they got their whole gang to go and beat up Ong & his gang. Do boys have to settle everything with violence? What is with all that huh? It’s bullshit man. Whatever.


8:30 ish
Still eating dinner, taking our time, nothing to do anyway. And we saw Giebabe, he works at Chill. Haha, he hasn’t changed one bit. Except maybe he’s a little better now than when I met him, he was in my class, 3 years ago. But he is still stick thin. It’s possible he’s thinner than I am. If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends, make it last forever, friendship never ends. That’s gotta be the cheesiest classic song ever. HAHA. Don’t call me baby, you know I don’t belong to you. Their music taste is pretty cool. They even played Hale. The last song I expected to hear there.

Barry requested for a rock song but it didn’t go on. Don’t worry Barry, when I start working there (hopefully), I’ll take requests. Haha!


9:30
We paid and went back inside the mall to just hang around. See if we could do something. But there’s wasn’t anything to do and so we just sat there on the benches somewhere on the third floor and just talked while I went online with Rona’s account. I chatted with Paths, who is doing great in Cali and we got into this really personal conversation which I don’t like to talk about. But she kept us company till we left and gave loads of advice on my case of the heart. Thanks Paths, I really appreciate it and I suppose I can always move on, and life goes on, there are others right?


10:15 ish
Most of the stores were close by then and there really wasn’t anything to do. And so we got up from our 3rd floor retreat and made our way back to, guess where? Chill. Haha. Here’s what the waiter said to us when he saw us for the third time & how I got my job interview:


“Hey, it’s you again!”
“Haha, favourite place I guess, there’s nowhere else to go.”
“Haha, I remember that orange tie. Haha, but this is good.”
“Yeah, I know right, we’re keeping your business up. Oh by the way, do you guys have job openings right now?”
“Yeah, as a part timer, we do.”
“Awesome, cause I’m looking for a job right now.”
“Yeah, if you really want a job then you can be our part time cashier. Just come here anytime after lunch so you can talk to the boss, you know like, direct interview, negotiate your salary and all that.”
“Wow, cool, thanks man.”


I know right. THANK GOD. Hahaha, guess what Natasha, I’m gonna work at Chill! Haha. I hope. I seriously pray they’ll take me. I’m halfway in already.

You know what’s so ironic? The person I DON’T EVEN KNOW tells me they have an opening when ALL THE GUYS I DO KNOW didn’t really do anything. Haha. Really.

And Nigel, Natasha’s brother, who’s been serving us the last two times, served us again. Here’s our conversation when he served us our tea (don’t ask me why, Rona wanted tea, who drinks tea at night anyway? Us, I guess).


“I bet you’re weirded out by us, coming here again.”
“Hahaha, nahh, money, money, money, money, money!”
“We’re not rich okay? There isn’t anything else to do anyway, haha.”


And he just walked away laughing, going money, money, money, money. Hilarious. So we hung out there in the dark. And you know Azim, whom we were supposed to hang out showed up at like, what 11? Haha, he’s like 10 hours late? Crazy arse. He was probably at Netland the whole time.


11:30
We got picked up just when things were getting funner. Funner. What a weird word. Josh and I constantly argue about it, he thinks its bad English. Whatever man, it could be in the dictionary one day! Haha! Gette was at a party and so Rona was at my house till about midnight, I told her to sleep over but she had nowhere to put her stupid contacts. Haha.

So we just watched Step 2 till Mike came and I went to bed at about 1 AM, but it took me hours to fall asleep. I do not know why. I probably fell asleep at about 4 or 5 AM.


So basically, yesterday was great, wish Aikks was there, it would have been more fun that it already was. I’ve got my job interview & that’s all I wanted. Life is great once again despite its shrouding misery.

Whoa, this has got to be my longest post. If you’d made it this far without falling asleep then I really appreciate it. Haha.

Oh yeah, does anyone know if we’ve got school tomorrow? Call me if you do. Have a great weekend dear readers. (:

Labels: hanging out, hilarious, people

I’M TAKEN BACK TO THE GLORY DAYS
When we were kids without a brash of bitter things to say.


“..My eyes can’t believe what they have seen. In the corner of your room, you’ve stockpiled millions of my memories. So take a chance and make it big cause it’s the last you’ll ever get. If we don’t take it, when will we make it? I never tried to make the best of my time when I thought that I had plenty of it.”
The Phrase That Pays


Honestly, I do. I miss those people who’ve left for someplace beyond this place. Not in a dying kind of way, I mean leaving, as in going somewhere else leaving us here. I’m not saying we’re rotting with misery here, we’re not. Honestly, we aren’t. At least, I’m not. I just miss them, that’s all.

I miss Rona, whom I have not seen in about a couple of months since we watched Hancock. Man. I wonder what she’s been up to lately. She never reads my blog, rarely, if ever at all but in case you are, I miss you dude, let’s catch a movie again after my mocks yeah? Potter’s been moved to next year, bummer dude. It’s cool though, and anyway, I seriously wanna watch Wall-E and like, Zohan. I’ll see you soon yeah.

And there’s Elaine. She played her part in the glory days. Yep, we had so much fun together last year. Irretrievable and irreplaceable memories, she was very much loved. And now she’s gone, off to study elsewhere. Loads of memories, piled up in the back of my head with the gang. She was incredibly hyper and fun and everything and...it’s not the same you know. Dude, we miss you. We do, we do. Belated happy birthday yeah?

And Ella. I mean, she’s in a different school now with a whole new set of buddies. I know she’s having the time of her life at St George’s. Hey Ells, I know you’re reading this, just wanted to say we miss you and it’s not the same with the shorty here by our side, constantly snapping photographs with her phone.

Speaking of shorties and little people, I miss Chi too. Another bestfriend gone. Chi and I had our rough times, we used to insult each other a LOT, believe me, we got nasty, but still. He was a real good guy, in and out. I guess we just had so much fun pissing each other off we didn’t really see the other side of fun in playing it cool. He left early this summer without warning. It was so sudden; I didn’t even know he was leaving. Gosh. He was an irreplaceable dude. We miss ya Chi. Hope all’s well out there (:

And then there’s Paths, California bound. I mean, we weren’t that close, semi-close more like, I think there was this one point in time where we considered each other as best buddies. But anyway, through her blog, I learned loads more about her and she is an awesome person, and I wonder why we’ve never really hung out. I mean we see each other every day back then but we didn’t really do much together. How I regret. Well she’s gone and that’s that. At least there’s the Internet right? Like everyone else here Paths, I miss you. I’m pretty sure that everything’s going great there at San Jose.

There’s also Camille. I’ve known her since, like, the 2nd grade, but we were never close. But she was someone who was there all the time. But she never really considered me a close mate and neither did I and now she’s gone too. I miss her presence. If you know what I mean, she used to always be there, no more now.

And you know, Eddie’s leaving. That’s just...uuurgh. Eddie, one of the awesomest people I know, is leaving next year. For some other school (can’t blame him though). Man.

People I’m not that close too are leaving too. There’s Melissa, who left for college I think, she is freaking talented, a singer/song writer, I didn’t even get a chance to really hang out, and Arif this senior dude I just recently met. He was so cool, it was fun hanging out with him and now he’s gone, I didn’t even know. I was just like,


“Hey, where’s that Arif dude, haven’t seen him in a while.”
“Oh, he left for technical college.”
“WHAT?”


The term wasn’t even over yet. Goodness.

I suppose everyone WILL leave and the only way to escape it is to leave yourself. Just go then. There’s isn’t much to do but get over it and move yourself.

So many close and somewhat close people gone and going in less than just nine months. I guess there’s nothing really we can do but make the most of who and what we’ve got left because they could leave, anytime, and without warning just like Chi and Ells. They just leave, don’t they? They rarely ever turn back and find our paths crossed.

One by one the bestfriends leave. Please, please don’t tell me Aikks is leaving next, I do not know how I can cope with that. Haz is leaving for college and so is Kevin. So there really is a downside to having friends in different grades. They just graduate and leave huh?

And when we, I graduate, I suppose we’d all have to split up at the crossroads. Not knowing if ever again we’d see each other. Would we even remember? I had so many memories from kindergarten, so many friends, but I can’t even remember half of them. Is that the same then, later? We’d store the memories, locked up in our heads, to forget the friends we swore we won’t?

So as the days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years, the faces that used to be beside you, promising not to let go, not to forget, start to walk away and be replaced by the mere photographs you hold in your hands. I guess that’s just how it goes.

And we move along.

Labels: deep stuff, people, personal things, school

RONA’S still alive, thank God!!! She just replied my message, FINALLY, goodness. Had me all freaked out.

TWO AND TWO QUARTERS OF AN HOUR LATER

Just got off the phone with her. Damn, it’s great to catch up. We’re going out to watch Wall-E on Saturday. Probably Zohan too, come if you must, just don’t ask me to pay for your tickets. Haha (:

Turns out she just got back from her vacation like, last week, and well...I don’t know. And she forgot to like reply my messages, which initially sparked the freak out period.

Her body clock’s all messed up, I swear. Here’s a typical school day for her:

7:00 AM; School (this is normal)
3:00 PM; Sleep (this isn’t, a normal human being would sleep at around 9 to 6)
9:00 PM; Eat dinner (yep, I can’t stand not eating for that long)
10:00 PM til dawn: Read. (it’s amazing, I know)

She isn’t normal; she comes from a different planet just like Josh. When you guys fly back to your home planet, do remember me yeah? I’m kidding, gosh, don’t take it so seriously. Geez. But that’s cool, my bestfriend’s a vampire. Sort of.

It’s amazing how you can keep on talking and talking on the phone for hours without running out of things to say. Unlike with some people. You know, you’d get all those awkward moments. Here’s what I used to do whenever that happened:

“Haha, yeah, that was so cool.”
“Yeah haha.”
Silence.
“Ahem.”
“Awkward silence moment.”
Laughter follows.

Yeah, I just kinda say it out loud. It breaks down the tension plus while everyone’s busy laughing, I think of something else to say. Other times though, it doesn’t work. As in this case:

“Hey.”
“Hi.”
“Man, this is awkward.”
“Why?”

Haha. Now THAT is awkward. But I suppose the key to not have awkward silences would be to keep hanging out and talking. That’s the only way. Well...there are others but this is the best way. Haha.
RONA’S still alive, thank God!!! She just replied my message, FINALLY, goodness. Had me all freaked out.

TWO AND TWO QUARTERS OF AN HOUR LATER

Just got off the phone with her. Damn, it’s great to catch up. We’re going out to watch Wall-E on Saturday. Probably Zohan too, come if you must, just don’t ask me to pay for your tickets. Haha (:

Turns out she just got back from her vacation like, last week, and well...I don’t know. And she forgot to like reply my messages, which initially sparked the freak out period.

Her body clock’s all messed up, I swear. Here’s a typical school day for her:

7:00 AM; School (this is normal)
3:00 PM; Sleep (this isn’t, a normal human being would sleep at around 9 to 6)
9:00 PM; Eat dinner (yep, I can’t stand not eating for that long)
10:00 PM til dawn: Read. (it’s amazing, I know)

She isn’t normal; she comes from a different planet just like Josh. When you guys fly back to your home planet, do remember me yeah? I’m kidding, gosh, don’t take it so seriously. Geez. But that’s cool, my bestfriend’s a vampire. Sort of.

It’s amazing how you can keep on talking and talking on the phone for hours without running out of things to say. Unlike with some people. You know, you’d get all those awkward moments. Here’s what I used to do whenever that happened:

“Haha, yeah, that was so cool.”
“Yeah haha.”
Silence.
“Ahem.”
“Awkward silence moment.”
Laughter follows.

Yeah, I just kinda say it out loud. It breaks down the tension plus while everyone’s busy laughing, I think of something else to say. Other times though, it doesn’t work. As in this case:

“Hey.”
“Hi.”
“Man, this is awkward.”
“Why?”

Haha. Now THAT is awkward. But I suppose the key to not have awkward silences would be to keep hanging out and talking. That’s the only way. Well...there are others but this is the best way. Haha.

Labels: people, random

Poke Patrick Stump.

I mean yeah, that’s probably weird, but hey, who doesn’t poking at chubby people? And Patrick’s so cute, in the sense of chubbiness. He looks so...aaarrgh. You know when like, you see a really adorable kid and you just wanna squeeze them and all that? Yeah, it’ll probably annoy the kid and yes, I do suppose it would annoy Patrick himself, but still.

So today we saw these two dogs mating. Yep. Everyone just kept laughing, it was massive pandemonium. The bus pulled over and we saw these two dogs stuck at the arse and we were all like, “What are they doing? Why aren’t they running away like they always do when they see us? What?” and apparently, yeah, they were mating. Gosh. And the little kids were so inquisitive about it. They were all like, “Whoa. What are they doing?” My sister knew everything though. She was like, “I know why they’re doing that, they’re making babies! The dog plants a seed into the female dog’s body and she gets pregnant!”

I was kinda grossed out though, I don’t mind them doing that, I just don’t want to see it. Shudders. And when the dogs saw us they were like trying real hard to err, separate. Gosh. And my sister was like, “The guy has to put his thing into the girl’s thing. It’s a good thing humans don’t do that, it’s disgusting.”

And I was like, haha okay whatever. I mean, I can’t tell her that they do, she’s only nine for heaven’s sake. One thing’s for sure: someone’s getting pregnant tonight.
****
We didn’t do much in school today. A couple of teachers just went on and on and on lecturing us for hours. Literally. Our Math teacher was the most pissed off, I mean, not everyone’s into Math right, and I guess that the results for the mocks were pit low for most of the students. I pity her. It’s her last year and everyone’s giving her such a hard time. I don’t think she can take it anymore. If she gets some kind of coronary heart disease soon, the school’s gonna pay for her medical bill, I’m sure.

And I guess the rest of the teachers decided to take a little time off and give us free periods. Life is good. I guess.

So does anyone know where Rona is? She hasn’t been returning my calls or replying any of my messages. She’s not replying ANYONE. What the hell is going on? JIS started the school year already. She has to be back from wherever vacation she’s gone on. Where could she be? This is freaky.

Speaking of JIS, I could be moving there next year. But it’s just a slight, distinct, incredibly slim possibility, like, 0.000009% chance of me transferring. Yeah. That low. But still, who doesn’t wanna go there right? And I don’t wanna leave the people here. Not really.

****
You know how like, some people try to copy everything you do, from your phone, to your wallpaper, to your music taste, to your friends, to your talents, to the way you speak, the way you wear your hair, the way you walk, the shoes you wear, to where you go, what you do at home, basically EVERYTHING?

What do you make of that? Entirely freaky, that’s for sure. There’s this person, or rather, people, in school who do just that. What am I, your #1 role model or something? I get that, if I’m not me, then I would want to be me too. Haha, kidding. But not the point, these girls are trying to be ME. ME.

Please, just stop. There’s only one, repeat, ONE, Chelsea Beckett around here who’s exactly like me, and that’s ME. Freaking clones. You just CANNOT be like me. Don’t you get that?

Why do you follow me around all day anyway? I have a life you know. And I suggest that you go and get one. I suppose-- okay, why is Beethoven playing? I don’t remember putting him in my playlist. What? I listen to Beethoven now? Sounds cool though. Anyway, I suppose it’s all right to do similar things that I do, but you don’t have to freaking copy every freaking thing I do for goodness sake. These people.

Why don’t you just...be yourself? Or maybe being you sucks. Then do something about it, don’t go hang yourself or anything though. And please, just please, STOP CLONING ME.

YOU CAN’T CLONE ME. Enough said.

Labels: people, personal things, random, school

I have three good reasons why I want a job at Chill.

1. It’s at the mall.
2. It gets me money, which is the main reason I want a job in the first place.
3. Because my on

Scratch the third reason, it’s uh...personal. Please God, please, can I get a job there? Please, oh please.

****
The mocks are OVER. Hallelujah. I cannot believe it’s over that quick. It was like, “The mocks are tomorrow, can you believe we’re here already?” and then suddenly “The exams are over, hurrah”. That was quick.

The tension’s not gone yet though. Well it is for me, but now that the mocks are over, we have to get over PMB too. Which is like, one month and a half from today. Just like what Alister said:

“Seems like I just took my PCE yesterday and now we’re here already. What?”

Just proves that time slips away faster than you can grab at it huh. And everyone’s still you know, screaming their heads off about it. Just relax, gosh, it can’t be that hard.

****
Here’s to Alister:

I mentioned you, and I suppose you’re happy now? Haha. You better be a regular man, or I will sue.

I hope you understand everything here. Uh, I can’t get off my arse and make you a dictionary. Hahahaha. Live with it then. Sleep well, potato dude.
I have three good reasons why I want a job at Chill.

1. It’s at the mall.
2. It gets me money, which is the main reason I want a job in the first place.
3. Because my on

Scratch the third reason, it’s uh...personal. Please God, please, can I get a job there? Please, oh please.

****
The mocks are OVER. Hallelujah. I cannot believe it’s over that quick. It was like, “The mocks are tomorrow, can you believe we’re here already?” and then suddenly “The exams are over, hurrah”. That was quick.

The tension’s not gone yet though. Well it is for me, but now that the mocks are over, we have to get over PMB too. Which is like, one month and a half from today. Just like what Alister said:

“Seems like I just took my PCE yesterday and now we’re here already. What?”

Just proves that time slips away faster than you can grab at it huh. And everyone’s still you know, screaming their heads off about it. Just relax, gosh, it can’t be that hard.

****
Here’s to Alister:

I mentioned you, and I suppose you’re happy now? Haha. You better be a regular man, or I will sue.

I hope you understand everything here. Uh, I can’t get off my arse and make you a dictionary. Hahahaha. Live with it then. Sleep well, potato dude.

Labels: people, random, school

It’s been a week or so, and wouldn’t you know it.

“Our teenage vow in the parking lot, till tonight do us part.”
Hum Hallelujah

The mocks have long since begun and I cannot believe that there are six down already and just a couple more papers to go. Gosh. Everything has been so downright easy, but to avoid possible karma, I won’t talk about it. But it was easy alright. I hope I get at least 7 As out of 8.

And guess what? I’ve got an awesome new laptop. Can you believe that? It hasn’t really sunk in on me yet. But wow. My own laptop, just imagine a little kid finding out that he just won a lifetime supply of mint flavoured ice cream (I like mint, I’ve no idea why everyone else despises it), and you’ll get the picture. And I bet some people would go “Oh yeah, sure, so what? I’ve got one too”. Whatever man, whatever.

I named it Trohmaniatic. Which is a really weird name for a laptop, yes, I know, I call it Joe for short. I named it after possibly the awesomest guitarist ever: Joseph Trohman (it’s one of my life’s ambitions to be just like him, that odd sense of humour and awesome guitar playing). Okay, maybe just one of the awesomest. Whatever.

Anyway, my phone’s all mucked up right now. I can’t send a single message (that explains why I’ve been blatantly ignoring all the messages I get from you guys, it’s not my fault, I swear) ever since I upgraded to 3G. Relax; it’s still the same number, only it’s 3G. I’ve called DST like, a couple of times about it and they just keep telling me to do the same thing. Only it’s not working. And I so do not want to call for the third time, they’ll probably think I’m tryna piss ‘em all off or something.

“DST Com, how may I help you?”
“Yeah, hi, it’s me again, and uh, I still can’t seem to send any messages.”
(Whispered to the operator beside her, while rolling her eyes) “It’s her again.”
(Back to me) “Look miss, why don’t you try again?”
“I’ve tried several thousand times and I still CAN’T.”
(Operator groans, while thinking of a way to get off the phone)

Know what I mean? Haha, kidding, I don’t think they’re that nasty, on the contrary, they’re quite friendly. And anyway, I got my dad to take my phone someplace where they can do something about it.


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Down to other things.

There’s great news and news that really puts down the great news. So the great news is that the Internet’s back, hurrah. I got this modem thingy which gives me Internet anytime, anywhere and it works just like a phone, ye have to recharge it when runs out of credit. And that’s where the other news comes in: I ran out of credit after only a couple of times. Frustrating, is it not? This explains why I haven’t been posting anything lately. So who’s nice enough to transfer a couple of bucks to me? (:

I’m hanging back after school tomorrow; I’ve got some replacement classes for music. I’m gonna drag Aikks down over to Sing U Mee (or whatever way you want it spelled), that Chinese restaurant under Netland. The food is great, honestly. I remember the last time I went over there, I was with Eddie and Liz. Saying that Eddie was sensitive about the non-Halal policy would be an understatement.

He was paranoid, I swear, he sounded just like some mental patient. Okay, I was exaggerating. But not the point. He just kept interrogating the waitresses about what’s in his food. It was hilarious to say the least. I bet the Chinese people there were all bugged by Eddie’s constant moaning and groaning about the non-Halal food. Well, he is Muslim right? He has the rights to complain. Then again, we really shouldn’t have brought him there; I ended up eating all the meat he ordered.

So anyway, I’m bringing Aikks there, she has orals after. Speaking of which, my English orals were a fortnight ago, and I’m pretty sure it went well. The teachers were incredibly friendly like Nikki said; all I told myself was to charm them, which is the only way to get the full 15. Well, besides speaking great English. I think I may have charmed the pants off of them already, metaphorically speaking.

The last few days have great, to say the least. Past conversations have left my guts filled with all those fluttering things, yep. It’s amazing how insignificant things suddenly become so significant coming from the right person. It’s made my day. Or days. Yeah.

I guess that’s pretty much it for now. Sleep well folks.

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Guess what? My phone is back and finally working. Halle-freaking-lujah. Thank you God. You can expect replies now people. Really.

“..I got to be wholesome

I could be loathsome

Guess I'm a little bit shy

Why don't you like me?

Why don't you like me without making me try?”

Mika is the best. His songs are simply wonderful…and odd. I know that this is really shocking, since I’ve been to known to listen to everything strictly rock, punk & alternative, and Mika is way out of that jurisdiction having a sort of pop-py kind of beat to his music, but still. His kind of music rocks. Period. He has this funny edge to it & his demeanour is simply amazing. Hilarious & definitely not serious at all. Wow. When things get all crappy and messed up and all that, you can always turn to his music. Three cheers for Mika.

Labels: music

10:46 AM “..I’m two quarters and a heart down.”

Breaktime didn’t go as I intended it too |: Oh, for heaven’s sake. Maybe I’ve been sending out the wring signs or something. I mean this whole insane thing is driving me up the wall!!! I just want to tear out in sudden frustration. Aargh. But I guess it wasn’t exactly my fault and it’s not that bad. Lighten up.

So I may possibly, might have, could have, most probably with the slightest hint of maybe, acted all…wrong. Wow. I can almost see it.

“Dude, can’t you see what’s in front of you? She absolutely does NOT like you. She acts like you DON’T exist (with the exception of the rare hello’s), she does NOT talk to you at all, she ignores you way too much and seems to having way too much fun with other people! Give it a rest.”

But no. It’s not like that. Not slightly. Not even a little. Not at all. I mean, yeah, I guess I did all that..but I swear, that is NOT what’s going on. At all. Man, if only you knew.

11:00 AM

*yawn*. I feel sleepy. Not feeling any better either. Pourquoi?!

11:03 AM

Still..

11:04 AM

So you must be wondering why I’m writing all this down instead of finishing up an essay or something equally tedious. Let’s just say some people forgot to bring their books and now the class is correcting each others papers and I got lucky, giving my book to someone else and not getting any in return. Oh well.

Anyway, back to wallowing around the pit of great frustration. I don’t really intend on writing all these down, but uh, I guess I feel that much frustrated to do so. So I really don’t mean to be this way, acting like you don’t exist. Like I don’t see you. But I do. In fact, you’re the only person I see. You’ve no idea how much you exist.

The stupid thing is…I’m probably the one who doesn’t exist in your eyes. How…frustrating. I don’t know.

11:15 AM

So if this is how you behave when you like someone, how the hell do you act when you don’t?! That’s just…weird. Do you like, do the exact opposite and NOT ignore them, hang out with them and constantly talk to them? What??

01:17 AM

It’s been a couple of hours, not much has changed. Except for the fact that I am no longer glued to the classroom chair & table, surrounded by constant shouting, laughing & swearing. Honestly. What is with the PG-rating of our class? Honestly.

I’m at Neo and I haven’t been doing good in class lately. Why can’t I fricking understand all those fricking notes?! Geez.

Labels: personal things, school, thoughts

Title copyright 2008 Joshua The Pessimist.

7: 32 AM

Sitting here at school waiting for my mock orals. Mock. Funny word. “I mock yeu vid my French akzent.” Eh. Can’t wait to get over mine |: I got this nice old (okay, not old) average-seeming teacher (WHOA. THAT GUY LOOKS JUST LIKE CHI. I miss the dude :( I swear that looked just like him. I must be seeing things). I’ve never really talked to her before so basically, she doesn’t know me except by name. CRAP. I LEFT MY IC AT HOME. =.=

Anyway, she doesn’t know me. That’s both good and bad x/ There are three reasons why that is a bad thing.

a.) I’d have to break the ice and all, it won’t be that easy.

b.) Well, if she doesn’t know then she hasn’t talked to me, like, ever and well, she has absolutely NO idea whatsoever about my verbal skills (I don’t mean to brag) and I suppose she’ll underrate me. Unless I make a REAL GOOD IMPRESSION on her.

c.) I remember being picked as Juliet for this Romeo & Juliet thing for a book fair or whatever a couple of years ago and I remember she was in charge and I also remember changing the script (: What? I thought ‘breast’ sounded weird so I changed it to ‘chest’. Geez. I bet she was weirded out on me doing that |:

I suppose it is a good thing because…I can make a good first impression this time. I even brought an apple. Haha. Nawh, the apple’s mine. I have this seemingly odd habit of bringing an apple to school everyday.

“Who eats apples in school?!” -Alister.

I DO. ME. There is absolutely nothing wrong with bringing an apple to school. Except when Isaac comes along, grabs it and throws it around and eventually drops it on the floor which ends up with me hitting him. My apple (:

7:47 AM

Geez. The timekeeper annoys me =.= I mean you have a bad day, do whatever the hell you want, just don’t take it out on us. “Less noise puh-lease!!”, “Turn off all cellphones or I’ll confiscate them!”, “You’d be penalized if ya’ll don’t abide by the rules!”. Penalized. Man.

Danice just found a love note. Here’s what is says:

“How long has it been since I fell in love with you?

My feelings increase, will you ever notice them…

Even though I never once put them to words

I didn’t want to know what is was like to be in love with someone.

I love you- and so I wish you to hold me tight.

How long will I be thinking of you?

I miss you every time I think of you.

If there was an eternally falling rain…

Could it hide my feelings for you?

So I again…I really…I..love you.

The feeling wells up in my brain.

I want to shout to the world…that…I really, really, really love you.

My true feelings.”

That’s sad. I mean like, wow. Good luck with the boy, whoever you are. Okay, there may be a possibility that this may be lyrics but anyway the girl must feel that much to write it all down. Really heartbreaking though, applause, applause.

Oh, I gotta go.

8:24 AM

Just finished, basically it was easy. Only I got deducted for forgetting my IC. Man. I told her it’s just a MOCK oral exam so it shouldn’t be that serious/strict. And she told me to not take things too lightly x| Boy. I think I got on quite well though, we talked about

1. Daring things I like/would like to do

2. Pampered/Spoiled brats around the school (she made me describe their attitude)

3. Student-Teacher relationships

Yep. The student teacher thing was kinda tricky and I had to be sensitive about it since I was a talking a teacher, du-uh, don’t wanna offend her or like, she’ll deduct me even more. But on the whole, it was okay I guess. I put on my charming demeanor and tried my best. Maybe not. Whatever. The stupid thing was when I was telling her about the daring things I’d wanna do, she asked what I’d do if my parents wouldn’t let me and I said I’ll persuade them because I had a “very persuasive personality”. She took that as “I get everything I want and I always have my way”. HELL NO. I should have said “I just don’t give up, it’s not me.” Geez. I’m gonna go tell her that. Man, I really wish my teacher was a former English teacher of mine or something. At least someone who knows me! At least they won’t think I’m some bratty kid x|

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Phrase Of The Day: MAN THE GUNS!

I suppose I’d get better marks if I had a teacher I knew :| Oh well, never mind that. We went over to Netland again and had a blast (: Kevin kept persuading me to play COD4 with him but I guess gaming just isn’t my kind of thing. I suppose it must be fun and all but nah, not me. No Paths, I will not get addicted to CS even if I try it. Haha.

So we just sorta went over and just hung out. There was this one insane episode when Aikks wanted to get a Pop Mie (one of those instant noodle things) and we just kept laughing over how she wanted to “pop me”. It sounded so stupid & hilarious to me and Aikks and we just kept laughing for about 2 minutes straight (it took us about 10 minutes to actually cook the thing). But Josh was all like, that’s so stupid (I bet it sounds like that to you readers too, don’t try, you won’t get it). Hahahaha. He’s a pessimist. This is what you get when you’re friends with a pessimist :p I think he ended up laughing too. Haha. Before that he was all “Being a pessimist is good.”, hence the title of the entry.

He is the most skeptical, pessimistic, down-to-earth and factual person ever to live on this planet. Really. But it’s funny, seriously. How many people do you know always suggest going somewhere else in YOUR dream or laugh at you silly ambitions right? (: I remember telling him about my dream where Ronnie held the school hostage (yeah). So while everyone was getting shot at, I ducked, grabbed Aikks and headed for the corridors to run to the front area of the school.

And Josh was like, “And you didn’t remember me? You just left me to die there?” I didn’t see him, du-uh hahaha. So I was like, “I guess you were absent.” And then he said I should’ve ran the other way since I was moving farther from the exit if I go through the corridors. Haha. Joshua, Joshua. Tsktsk.

By the way, Josh, if you’re reading this I’m NOT in any way trying to make you sound bad (he’s fun, really). Maybe you only think that because YOU’RE A PESSIMIST. Hahahahaha, don’t get mad.

All morning I kept asking who was “manning the guns” and Aikks just kept laughing. Honestly. Haven’t you heard of pirate talk? Okay, so maybe it isn’t but still. It goes with “Brace the foreyard” or “Hard to starboard” or something. Haha. Stupid. I just kept saying that cause I wanted to know who was “manning the guns” = “Who’s using the computer?” since we just sorta kept leaving the computer to go outside and keep Josh company. And yeah. Aikks was still paying for that. Lmao. We ended up letting Isaac take over the “guns” until the time’s up. Haha. Man the guns. Hence the phrase of the day. I bet you were thinking of like, CS or COD4 or you know all those online game things people get up to. Haha, nah.

ps. Josh, thanks for the songs man. By the way, there are certain things in my pendrive; I don’t remember what I left in my pendrive, so there might be some…things in there. Hahaha.

Labels: hilarious, people, school